Rowling has repeatedly said that Harry Potter “simply fell into [her] head” and “all of the details bubbled up in [her] brain.” She “[had] never felt such a huge rush of excitement and [she] knew immediately that it was going to be such fun to write.” Sounds like a fairy tale beginning to a fairy tale ending, doesn’t it?
Perhaps that’s all ordinary readers need to know about Rowling’s path to literary fame and fortune, but us writers need to know more. We need to know the not-so-glamorous version of what it was like to write Harry Potter.
What It Was Really Like to Write Harry Potter
First, we need to appreciate how disciplined Rowling had to be to develop her story nugget into seven hefty books. We have to know that she wasn’t lazily sipping mochas for two decades while jotting down a continuous stream of words like the literary Fountain of Youth.
All too often we convince ourselves that we would write more if only we were well-known, or had more money, or could find more time. But none of that is what makes a writer. It’s simply that a writer writes.
Below I’ve compiled the oft-forgotten, non-fairy-tale version of the story behind Harry Potter.
A writer who waits for ideal conditions under which to work will die without putting a word on paper. —E. B. White Tweet
Book One: Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone
Even though Harry Potter strolled into Rowling’s head fully formed, she still spent several years mapping out the seven books, and then she spent another year writing the first one, Harry Potter and Sorcerer’s Stone. Rowling rewrote Chapter One so many times (upwards of fifteen discarded drafts) that her first attempts “bear no resemblance to anything in the finished book”—which was especially frustrating since Rowling was a single parent and her writing time was entirely contingent on her infant daughter, Jessica.
Whenever Jessica fell asleep in her [stroller], I would dash to the nearest café and write like mad. I wrote nearly every evening. Then I had to type the whole thing out myself. Sometimes I actually hated the book, even while I loved it.
Rowling also had to waste her already limited time on nuisances like re-typing an entire chapter because she changed a paragraph or, even worse, re-typing the entire manuscript because she hadn’t double-spaced it.
Besides writing, Rowling struggled with many personal problems: the death of her mother, estrangement from her father, a volatile and short-lived marriage, a newborn child, life on welfare, and a battle with clinical depression. Unfortunately, Rowling’s support system was nearly nonexistent. She once told a friend about Harry Potter and her friend’s response was typical.
I think she thought I was deluding myself, that I was in a nasty situation and had sat down one day and thought, I know, I’ll write a novel. She probably thought it was a get-rich-quick scheme.
Rowling grappled with suicidal thoughts and eventually turned to therapy for help.
Once the manuscript was finally finished, Rowling collected a dozen rejection letters over a full year before Bloomsbury Publishing picked it up. Even then, Rowling was warned by her literary agent to find a job because her story wasn’t commercial enough to be successful. (“You do realize, you will never make a fortune out of writing children’s books?”)
Bloomsbury’s expectations of Harry Potter were so low that its initial print was only five hundred copies—three hundred of which were donated to public libraries.
Rowling’s first royalty check was six hundred pounds. A year later, she was a millionaire.
You’d fail only if you stop writing. —Ray Bradbury Tweet
Book Two: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Both Rowling’s agent and Bloomsbury Publishing had to (happily) eat their words. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone was so popular in the U.K. that Scholastica paid an unprecedented $105,000 for the American rights to the series. Rowling, however, still faced major frustrations.
For one, Rowling didn’t believe her success would stick. While writing Chamber of Secrets, she worked as a full-time French teacher (while still caring for her now-toddler daughter).
Rowling also suffered from her first and only debilitating bout of writer’s block.
I had my first burst of publicity about the first book and it paralysed me. I was scared the second book wouldn’t measure up . . .
Other lucrative contracts rolled in after Scholastica, which pulled Rowling out of poverty but also forced incredible pressure on her “to fulfill expectations.” Furthermore, the sudden deluge of money brought on a “tsunami of requests.” Everyone was asking Rowling for a financial leg up, and she panicked.
I was completely overwhelmed. I suddenly felt responsible in many different ways. . . . I was downright paranoid that I would do something stupid . . .
A professional writer is an amateur writer who did not quit. —Richard Bach Tweet
Book Three: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
The second Potter book was even more successful than the first, and Rowling finally dove into writing full-time with Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Prisoner of Azkaban was one of Rowling’s most enjoyable Potter books to write, but she still had to work very hard. Rowling wrote to her editor, “I’ve read [Prisoner of Azkaban] so much I’m sick of it. I never read either of the others over and over again when editing them, but I really had to this time.” Rowling added in a later letter, “The hard work, the significant rewrites I wanted to do, are over, so if it needs more cuts after this, I’m ready to make them, speedily . . .”
But if the rewrites were difficult for Book Three, Rowling was about to beaten over the head by Book Four.
The desire to write grows with writing. —Desiderius Erasmus Tweet
Book Four: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Again Rowling churned out a book in one year, and again Harry Potter was a raging success. But Rowling celebrated in a rather unexpected way:
The first thing that I did when I finished Prisoner of Azkaban was discuss repaying the advance for the [fourth] book. Yes, you can imagine. People were a little bit shaken . . . I said: I want to give the money back and then I will be free to finish in my own time rather than have to produce it for next year.
Rowling has been open about her struggle to write Book Four, which nearly caused a “nervous breakdown.”
That was the period where I was chewing Nicorette. And then I started smoking again, but I didn’t stop the Nicorette. And I swear on my children’s lives, I was going to bed at night and having palpitations and having to get up and drink some wine to put myself into a sufficient stupor.
Rowling attributed her stress to the staggering pressure she felt to produce another Harry Potter worthy of global adoration.
I’m sure that I’ll never have another success like Harry Potter for the rest of my life, no matter how many books I write, and no matter whether they’re good or bad. I remember very clearly that I was thinking the same thing when the excitement over the fourth Harry Potter volume literally exploded. The thought was unsettling to me at the time, and I still feel that way today.
Rowling also struggled with her plot for the first time since starting the series.
The first three books, my plan never failed me. But I should have put [this] plot under a microscope. I wrote what I thought was half the book, and “Ack!”—huge gaping hole in the middle of the plot. I missed my deadline by two months. And the whole profile of the books got so much higher since the third book; there was an edge of external pressure.
Rowling faced “some of [her] blackest moments” with Book Four.
At Christmas I sank to the depths: “Can I do this?” I asked myself. In the end it was just persistence, sheer bloody mindedness. It took months. I had to unpick lots of what I’d written and take a different route to the ending.
The worst rewrite for Rowling was one particular chapter:
I hated that chapter so much; at one point, I thought of missing it out altogether and just putting in a page saying, “Chapter Nine was too difficult,” and going straight to Chapter Ten.
Not surprisingly, Rowling struggled with burn-out.
Goblet of Fire was an absolute nightmare. I literally lost the plot halfway through. My own deadline was totally unrealistic. That was my fault because I didn’t tell anyone. I just ploughed on, as I tend to do in life, and then I realised I had really got myself into hot water. I had to write like fury to make the deadline and it half killed me and I really was, oh, burnt out at the end of it. Really burnt out. And the idea of going straight into another Harry Potter book filled me with dread and horror. And that was the first time I had ever felt like that. I had been writing Harry for 10 years come 2000 and that was the first time I ever thought, Oh God, I don’t want to keep going.
If I waited till I felt like writing, I’d never write at all. —Anne Tyler Tweet
Book Five: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Rowling stayed true to her word and went on vacation—kind of. She stepped away from Harry Potter to work on a completely unrelated book (which hasn’t been published). After a yearlong sabbatical, Rowling started on the fifth book, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
Rowling had written the first four books in a blisteringly fast five years, but she told her publishers that she didn’t want a deadline with Book Five, especially after dealing with the plot problems in Goblet of Fire. Her publishers had no other choice but to agree.
Rowling, however, still struggled to keep up. She has said numerous times that she wished she had better edited Order of the Phoenix: “I think [it] could have been shorter. I knew that, and I ran out of time and energy toward the end.”
And it’s no wonder. In two years, Rowling wrote an 870-page book, got married, had a baby, fought a bogus plagiarism lawsuit, started several charity organizations, consulted for the new Potter films, and ran around fulfilling her endless PR obligations. Worst of all, she was drowning in a never-ending deluge of media.
Rowling’s fame had grown to such bewildering heights that the attention had become relentless, which was quite a shock for her, especially since she had assumed that Harry Potter would only appeal to “a handful of people.”
Everything changed so rapidly, so strangely. I knew no one who’d ever been in the public eye. I didn’t know anyone—anyone—to whom I could turn and say, “What do you do?” So it was incredibly disorientating.
The paparazzi were digging through her garbage, hiding in her hedges, and camping out in front of her house. One reporter even slipped a note into her daughter’s backpack at school.
It’s very difficult to say . . . how angry I felt that my 5-year-old daughter’s school was no longer a place of . . . complete security from journalists.
Rowling was “racing to catch up with the situation” and “couldn’t cope” with the loss of her private life. “I couldn’t grasp what had happened. And I don’t think many people could have done.”
Among the uproar, Rowling was still expected to churn out another Harry Potter home run.
The secret of becoming a writer is to write, write, and keep on writing. —Ken MacLeod Tweet
Book Six: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Again Harry Potter exceeded all expectations, smashing records left and right, but no time to celebrate. It was on to Book Six.
Rowling was pregnant with her third child while writing Half-Blood Prince, but she wasn’t feeling nearly as stressed as she did with Book Five. In fact, she probably put some fans in a panic when she said:
I’m in a very lovely position. Contractually, I don’t even have to write any more books at all. So no one can possibly write that I have missed a deadline, because I actually don’t have a contractual deadline for Six and Seven.
Of course Rowling did write Book Six, which was “an enjoyable experience from start to finish.”
Rowling’s critics, however, were growing as vocal as her fans. “I found death threats to myself on the net,” Rowling said. “I found, well, people being advised to shoot me, basically.”
The paparazzi problem was also spinning out of control. After the birth of two more children, Rowling couldn’t even step out of her house without being stalked by photographers—she was “completely trapped.” She felt like she was “under siege or like a hostage.” She went so far as to sell her house and move her family, and she again turned to therapy, as she did years ago when Harry Potter was in its infancy.
Sometimes I think I’m temperamentally suited to being a moderately successful writer, with the focus of attention on the books rather than on me.
You just have to accept that it takes a phenomenal amount of perseverance. —J. K. Rowling Tweet
Book Seven: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Even with globally high expectations, Book Six was astoundingly successful, and Rowling immediately began working on the seventh. Deathly Hallows was the series finale, but Rowling had many other responsibilities besides writing: being a mother to three children, giving interviews, overseeing the Potter movies, and running her charities, to name only a few. Ironically, Rowling’s notoriety and wealth had cut her writing time in half from five days a week to two and a half.
There are times—and I don’t want to sound ungrateful—when I would gladly give back some of the money in exchange for time and peace to write.
The media marathon hadn’t slowed down either, which was exceptionally draining for Rowling.
Fame is a very odd and very isolating experience. And I know some people crave it. A lot of people crave it. I find that very hard to understand. Really. It is incredibly isolating and it puts a great strain on your relationships.
One of the media’s particular criticisms of Rowling was her appearance.
I found it very difficult, when I first became well known, to read criticism about how I look, how messy my hair was, and how generally unkempt I look.
Rowling worried about how such criticisms might affect her children.
Is “fat” really the worst thing a human being can be? Is “fat” worse than “vindictive,” “jealous,” “shallow,” “vain,” “boring” or “cruel'”? Not to me.
I’ve got two daughters who will have to make their way in this skinny-obsessed world, and it worries me, because I don’t want them to be empty-headed, self-obsessed, emaciated clones; I’d rather they were independent, interesting, idealistic, kind, opinionated, original, funny—a thousand things, before “thin.”
Somehow, in the middle of all this cacophony, Rowling finished her seven-book series. After nearly two decades, it was over. Rowling said, “I cried as I’ve only ever cried once before in my life, and that was when my mother died. It was uncontrollable . . .”
My feeling is, if you really want to [write], you will do it. You will find the time. And it might not be much time, but you’ll make it. —J. K. Rowling Tweet
Appreciate Where You Are in Your Writing Journey
This post is not about glorifying Rowling, or pitying her. This post is about learning to appreciate where you are in your writing journey. It’s only human to think that the grass is greener on the other side—to think that if only you had a certain amount of money or a certain kind of life, you’d finally get down to writing. But books aren’t written in a vacuum. Life doesn’t stop moving even for the most famous and successful writers. The best time to write is now—because that’s the only time you’ve truly got.
For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: “It might have been!”